Things change. And friends leave. And life doesn’t stop for anybody.
That’s by Stephen Chbosky in The Perks of Being A Wallflower.
When I first read it, I thought I understood. I’ve always known people change, and they will leave. Who doesn’t? I’ve experienced it loads of times too. And I thought I was already used to it, that if and when it happens to me again, I’ll be ready. I’ll be uncaring as stone. But I guess it just doesn’t work that way.
It just really hurts when you make an effort to connect, and they just wave you off like a fly buzzing around their meal. We were supposed have dinner with my ex-roomates. It was all planned out. My outfit was even ready. So even if I had two exams this morning, one of which consisted of twenty items, four points each, I was actually looking forward to the night. And then they all suddenly text that they were too busy, like they always claim to be whenever you plan dinner. So yeah. It sucks.
And it sucks even more when it’s you they come running to whenever they need help.
So! I’m stuffing myself with chocolate and wrapped around a blanket re-watching Game of Thrones instead. The simplest things always make me feel better.